Help. in Depressed kids who need hugs❤️🖤

Shit shit shit---

me hearing, seeing, or otherwise noticing myself:
I wanna throw my mother out a window
This is the second time she said “oh lets run a few errands it wont last long” then it takes an hour and i go on my Phone to tell everyone i will be gone then she takes it. (This happened yesterday morning too)
I just got hate commented todayy
Ugh. I hate life rn- ik i shouldnt blame myself for Other people but im doing it anyways
I don’t think I’m ok because I was unable to see for a few seconds that’s pretty weird