Venting in Fire's hangout spot

I just remembered.

I remember I used to watch Pokémon when I was little, yet look at me now.

too shy, or something to watch an anime.

Why am I like this???

Why am I so shy???

Like, shy enough to the point I can't watch anime

Hepp meh.

Why is this me???

I have a Crunchyroll account.

and haven't used it yet.

God why am I like this.

I want to use it, but I can't make myself idk why. AAAAAAAAAA

And this is the reason I never talk about my issues with my parents.

They're. The. Same. FUCKING ISSUES EVERY FUCKING DAY.

I can't draw well, I can't make myself like my own work, I can't change anything I do.

I'm sick of the Punkel drama.

Like my god. I know nothing about it, but I'm sick of fucking hearing it every. Fucking. Day.

I'm getting more and more irritable easily.

I just, feel pissed off 24/7 now... there's moments when I'm normal, but it's few and far between

Okay. WHY AM I BETTER AT DRAWING ON PHONE THAN ON MY DRAWING TABLET????

Also, HOW TF DO YOU DRAW EYELASHES???

Why in gods name, do I have the urge to search for an anime...

But can't make myself do it????????

https://gamejolt.com/p/why-do-i-bother-talking-when-it-s-my-same…

This "dream" is just shattering as I think about it. It'll never happen, and I know it.