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I still don't know what my true gender identity is; I still can't distinguish what others think about my gender identity and how I really feel.
Im lost
I don't know what's happening. I don't know if my boyfriend loves me, if I hurt him, if he doesn't love me anymore, if he's manipulating me. A friend talked to me and made me doubt everything.
I want to suicide because i only make the others feel bad
I still can't talk to my boyfriend. I want to talk to him. We had a problem a few days ago because of me, and I made him feel bad. I don't know if he still loves me after everything I said to him.
I'm taking things that other people say to me very badly; I feel like I'm always bothering them.
I really want season 3 of Helluva Boss to come out. I want to start watching Hazbin Hotel in the meantime, but I don't have Amazon Prime Video.
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if You want pls