Vent in Lucky's Amazing Gamejolt Community

I'm not afraid of taking accountability for my actions. I'm afraid of the people who I thought were gonna kill me at the time. ALSO I'M PRETTY SURE I'M NOT LYING WHEN I SAY I'M GENUINELY SORRY.

I am actually afraid of @baja_snick and @LuckyFan. Like, genuinely terrified. I don't want them to even talk about or to me. I AM SCARED.

Sometimes I think about killing myself.

But then I realize that people care.

So I put it off until there's nobody left that does.

THERE'S THIS FUCKING KID GOING IN AND OUT OF MY BRAIN AND CALLING ME "MOM". LIKE BITCH I'M NOT YOUR MOM. I MIGHT BE GOING CRAZY.

Edit: I think that thing is gone now. I slept and woke up to it not being there. I might be going insane.

I actually think I'm a parasite.

Like, not even kidding.

I need other people to survive,

and I drain them of their energy until they eventually leave.

I knew I wasn't human.

I just told my dad what I did. [AKA texted him]

I don't know how to properly apologize to the people I've hurt.

I know I might hurt them again but I don't even want to.

I just don't like hurting people.

I'm very good at it tho.

:c

This is the worst 413 of my life.

So like ppl are harrassing me for like
making a forsaken AU.

Looking back on what I did is fucking ass and I look at what I posted and fucking hate myself even more.

I can't hold it in anymore.

Full rant in article.