I've played games, I've drifted through fandoms, I've bitched for different teams, I've produced videos whether for myself before I hid them or for others, I've built bridges, I've burned bridges, and a bunch of other shit without ever making a game myself (me hosting Juan's TRTF1-4 doesn't count as much clout as that has brought).

I realized in that time how much I use the internet as an outlet for better or worse. Sometimes, just posting or reposting shit feels like an obligation more than something I do for fun anymore. Any serious attempts at producing some kind of content other than like videos for others has fallen flat on its face, and it's just not something for me. Really, a lot of shit I've taken part in was just wanting to, in the end, help a friend out or have fun, even if I question my decisions like always later on. I wonder how many self-destructive paths I could have avoided.

Before the unyielding sea of impulsive, negative thoughts in my head can completely swallow me up, I do want to say thank you to all the people who've stuck around and watch me post dumb shit and give attention to the games I've contributed bits to, no matter how small they were. To anyone I've opped in the past without good reason, I'm sorry for being an annoying dickweed. Unless you deserve it because I am a petty bitch.

Last thing I'm going to say is it's funny to think I joined this site around the time .exe games were kind of big. Wacky I probably predate many of the FNAFers on here. Am I gonna hang around much longer? Who knows? I might just abandon this account or pass it to someone else, even if it's for the sake of continuing the #1 @oli supporter streak.

Thanks for reading this ramble, and have a good night!