Well, things have been getting better and.. worse. Lol.

Better news is that I started eating more and taking care of myself, letting my beautiful boyfriend help me, trying build bonds back with people.

How have I been getting worse?

Barely sleeping, sometimes skipping meals, faking being happy every day so no one worries, pushing myself to do better in school, lashing out, being VERY drained every day.

That list keeps growing, so I will not continue with the negatives. Shall we move on?

I guess I better uh.. apologize right. Two people who deserve an apology. Yeah, I won't rush their decision, but hey I'm willing to listen to both sides.

Anime:

• Hey. Yeah, I'm aware that I haven't been the greatest towards you. Using you the way I did. I mean, I've been used to being stepped on and with my MH and hiding shit away just made it worse. A lot worse. And I know I was acting childish. I know. I've had time to reflect, even if it made me cry and shit but, it helped me realize that I can't use people to their advantage without something happening. I'm aware of your decision still, if it hasn't changed. I will try to not talk to you if you desire. I know I'm on Williams account more but still. I'm sorry, Anime.

Henry:

• I know I fucked up. Pushing you away and pulling you back in. Creating walls. Creating distance. But I still hurt you. Made you scared of me. It's come to my attention that I scared you and that made me scared of myself honestly. Scared of how much of a monster I've become. I know you don't want me as your adopted daughter anymore, I know, but I'm willing to try things at a smaller pace, if you're comfortable of course. If you don't want to talk that's also fine. I get it. Hell, that father daughter relationship I have with Dylan isn't working. He's working and has other shit going on. I have school so it doesn't work out. But, the conclusion of all of this is.. I'm sorry. Genuinely sorry. I know it's your choice but.. yeah.

I'm sorry if I brought the "drama" up into this. Let me know if I did. I'll remove the post if I did.