To keep things from sounding like a broken record I'll keep the same old, well, the same.
Therapy
Still in it, still going well, not much I can say without literally doxxing myself. A big development is understanding better on, how, I turned out how I did, and how I can grow and move on from that.
Me, myself and I
I am fine physically and mentally, not as lonely as I was last time, made a lot of new friends. I'm more so just trying to find my place in the world now.
Projeeecctsssss
There is not much I can say to be fair, Nothing has been going on so I've just been focusing on stuff I can and want to focus on.
Content Creation
I have been getting into a real swing with YouTube again, growing a community from my video effort rather than something I made in a pre-established community, it not only feels better for me mentally to upload, but it feels far more rewarding seeing the numbers tick up.
It is a hobby and I never want to feel like I am obligated to make videos for my channel, but I continue to do so because it's fun.
I have no long-term goals other than maybe catching up to where I was last time, which I- forgot...
Mimir
Mimirs about to turn 1 year old, my orange boy is getting big already. He's yet to have his snip due to lack of money to get it done but it's not causing any issues as he is an indoor cat and all of the female cats are spayed. Does not stop him from meowing a lot though, lordy he has lungs.
I don't think I can stress enough how much Mimir means to me, I don't think I would even be alive without him, he's that important to me.
Sona
The imp boy is now an imp girl, that is all the news I have on them.
The Future
This year has been insanely hard, rewarding and eye-opening for me for many reasons, I joined the internet when I was 8 years old, maybe even younger, I had little to no restrictions and that messed with my head growing up.
It's only this year that I took a sit down and just, thought, about what I've done in the 12+ years I've been on the internet, how much good and bad I've done, mostly bad I ain't going to sugar coat that.
I don't know what to do with myself sometimes, I don't seek forgiveness from people but what I do seek is to apologize to specific people for the way I treated them over the years, for what I said, done, all of that.
But chances are this won't happen unless I am directly contacted, so the best I can do is move on and make sure it does not happen again.
Some people have got in contact with me, for an idle chat, to shake hands, tie loose ends. I don't imagine I'd be friends with these people ever again but, having that bit of closure helps.
I want to thank everyone for being patient with me, even if you hate me, want nothing to do with me, or remain distant, I thank you for everything.
Being a part of new communities has been nice, every time I join a project I try to make sure the owner/director of said project knows exactly who I am, and what I have previously done, although met with scepticism, it's been nice to be a part of new and exciting projects (Mostly for voice work ehehe)
I wish to dedicate these next few years to my life, repaying my dues and giving back to everyone, new and old.
Thanks for reading, and generally for everything. Not many people get a chance to start over, so I don't plan on wasting it anytime soon. Maybe when I turn 80 mwuhahaha!
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