This is basically a vent/rant/just dump of whatever I just need to get out

I know this is kinda shocking coming from me but, even if I'm mostly over it, I still sometimes think back on it

This story sounds like 100% crazy but it all happened, even like some people I know remember it happening and there's even like still traces of it on site, at least the people reacting to it.

Like around in 2022, there was like some person was was blatantly making blatant f*tish material out of other people and like creating blatant NSFW stuff on the site, and of course like the kind of person I was back then(I still regret this) I chose to get involved and tried to "fight back" against this person that was doing that shit and that ended up with me having that stuff happen to me, for like months, or like even like almost a full year. Again I wasn't the only one who this person did this to, but I was one of the one's who got more of the worse parts of it.

Literally the same person too even like pretended to be flippin' PNGTubers(no I'm not kidding with that) but like what they did with that is that they frequently made like one account pretending to be the PNGtuber and like another account being like the "villain" targeting this person. Which basically means, creating and posting f*tish and NSFW stuff relating to that PNGtuber stuff and basically just emotionally manipulating us on this "villian" hell I even remember like one time when the "PNGtuber" like threatened to like "end themselves" when they were just again, basically manipulating us emotionally about some person that didn't even exist and was just them.

I don't know if they were a troll or who even like something even worse, that still doesn't like excuse the stuff they did.

Later on, they just straight up just posting real life shock images, and believe it or not, they even posted NSFW art of one my own characters on an adult site, I still have NO idea why but they did.

btw I was only like 16 when this had started and all took place.

It was all basically that and "fighting" this person until eventually someone exposed who they were and it finally stopped.

I say that I'm over it but like sometimes some of those parts haunt me sometimes, and it's like also why I have like mixed feelings on Scratch, because 1, I really wouldn't be doing the stuff I do without it and 2, if it wasn't for the moderation being so darn awful and easily abusable, none of this would of happened. Also just seeing like how Scratch basically is now with it's new enforced age stuff and AI just upsets me and pisses me off a lot. I wasn't really too keen on the way Scratch is but it's whatever at this point

Like still the fact when I got blocked for a full year after I was "fighting" some other unrelated trolls, again even if I mention this, it was literally the most beneficial thing because I was basically online on it a lot, more than I should, and its made me branch out into meeting new people, but that aside.

Another unrelated thing, that's happened on here

I forgot who it was but there was some dude that basically was threatening to do things to themselves and with the person I was, I wanted to like try and help them through it, until like later on and on they kept doing the same thing, again I was still trying to help them, until! I realized they were basically faking it for attention the whole time. Literally worrying me, for weeks, emotionally exhausting me, for no reason at all. It's pretty much why even if I see someone going through things sometimes, it's why I'm not as vocal about it, like I do care, but I just don't want to emotionally exhaust myself again or like having a case like last time where someone's basically faking it just for attention.

And like don't forget me like always like downing on myself and the things I do, like I don't really say this a lot, but sometimes I wish I could be at the bottom, of everything, because I don't think I'm really worthy of anything, sometimes I feel like when I see someone down or in a bad situation, yeah I feel bad, but I also wish I was in an even worse place, because my self-worth is so much of it's own thing, and so I could like have a better time understanding what they're going through because sometimes I just feel emotionally disconnected, it happens like a lot. Sometimes it happens because I don't want to get emotionally exhausted again, because, I am a very sensitive person, and almost immediately when I see someone in a bad place, my mood just immediately drops down and it's just on my mind for majority of the day, always thinking of the worst that can happen, and like I just wish I actually talked to people instead of being so afraid of what they might say or do, I just

I don't really know

Again, I know this isn't something that I normally do

I've just been needing to like let some stuff out, it's messy, I know it just started from Scratch things all the way to my own self-value, I know, but like it's just how it can be for me sometimes,

I'm sorry if it sounds like if I'm repeating stuff, but like it's just the way I can really say stuff and getting things out,

I could like keep going on forever about some more personal stuff, but I think I've let out enough for now

I'm sorry this is like a sudden change in tone, but I promise for now this will be the only time I will ever like dump something like this

That's all, I'm sorry again that it's a major shift in tone, but that's all

Take care guys