¿DIGNITY?

You'd heard of the word, of course. You weren't stupid, despite the facade you presented to the world. Hell, they'd be shocked to see you use the word facade correctly, You know the word and its meaning, and thought you knew its value. it didn't seem that important at first. What was valuable was the validation. The attention. To have literally thousands of pathetic people scared of you, of who you are, of what you've become. You were literally drowning in "appreciation" and "success". And losing a bit of dignity? That was a small price to pay for that. Nothing, really.

But then the attention and fear became almost scarce, everyone started not giving a fuck about you or about what you do. It wasn't much at first. But then, it got too hard to ignore. So you decided to try full Massacres. Tastefully done. And your audience ate it up! They "loved" you again. Briefly, then everything started declining again. Only one thing seemed to stop it for a time. Giving them more. All it cost you was just a bit more dignity.

So you started animal cruelty. Your "fans" "loved" that. Until they grew bored again. No matter what, there was always someone who could do what you did but better, prettier, or more extreme.

And then, Only one thing kept them coming back. A new "willingness" to do whatever you had to do to keep hearing your name on the street or news. The price? Just some more of that dignity.

Now? Now you're killing innocent people for losing a stupid game. you don't even stop to ask yourself "what if they have a family? Wife or husband? Or any kids?". No, you just kill them, You're too desperate their scream, the blood, The silence of the room would be broken for your laugh and their scream, but what you really crave it's the appreciation. Eventually, you'll cross lines you never imagined. Not even now.

And your friends? Just some of them are real long gone, others are thinking about it, Others simply no longer "appreciate" you; it's outright fear. Your family is already embarrassed even by the mention of you. What did they said last Christmas? "it's better if you don't come to visit"? And your beloved "fans"? Of course they talk about you, They talk about how sad your decline is. How they missed when you were "normal" or "kind". They chuckle about remembering the old you, then sigh when someone mentions the latest degrading thing you did. They think it's just a matter of time before you get fully rotten, get arrested, or disappear.

And then? Eventually, no one will remember you. No one will want you. No one will love you. Any children you'll have will grow to hate you for what you did and exposed them to. You'll have money, Recognition, validation, and nothing more. All that for the low, low cost of your dignity.