The whole reason for all this is because life is getting too hard for me.

As if you'd expect me to be open about this, for once I am. To let you all know that if I'm gone for about more that 2 weeks then you know what to expect. I can't do shit right, always doing the wrong thing, can't get my mind straight, overthinking, being ignored constantly. Everyone ignores the signs until in open about it and then they feel guilty and try to stop me. First of all you should have looked for the signs before this ever happened, second of all you should have checked on me and my mental health, you should have done everything your going to do right now beforehand. Because maybe it wouldn't have ended like this, but sadly it did. Because I'm tired, I hate it. I'm sick of being tired all the time for whatever reason. If I could just rest for the remaining of my life, then I'd be happy. I'm sorry, but there's no way you can convince me to stay right now. I'll either go into a coma or kms. Those are my two options that I won't change.