Life is not black or white. The shades of gray are very visible. Just because you did bad stuff doesn't mean you are damned to do bad stuff. If you regret it and do everything in your power to stop it and improve yourself, that's already a big step. First thing is to recognize the problem, the other is to act upon to change them and become a better self. Yeah, you fucked up. Maybe hardships and losing friends is what you need to realize a problem. And you know what? Good! That means you are doing the first step into healing, recognizing the problem.

Don't give up on everything because you realized your flaws. Or because big events happened or cuz you got your Canon event. Love is hard, even painful but you need it if you want to move on. Talk to someone you trust, someone that knows you well. Don't let it consume you and make you act impulsively. Take responsibility of your actions but be forgiving on yourself.

If you are the one that helps everyone but not yourself, pause. Take a pause. You cannot help others when your mental health is so low. Your kindness is appreciated but you gotta give that kindness to yourself too. Don't overwork your mind with issues. Avoid going at your breaking point as (someone that is in the same situation) your mind will break down and you will feel like it's an eternal cycle of suffering that cannot end. You will feel vulnerable to everything. The people that you helped will not always be there but you being there for them is enough. The ones that truly care will be there. Cherish them. Don't let your problems dry your emotions out. Living a life without emotions as a way to cope is terrible...

If you are rn feeling suic1dal...don't stay alone. Talk with the person you love the most, vent it, seek help, but never EVER stay alone. I was In that situation on October. I felt I couldn't be good. That i was just bad and Nothing else. Coupled with a lack of self care. I became su1cidal. I was so close to do it. I knew I had to act to get better. Yes I made a huge stupid mistake but I won't let it define me. I will improve myself. I will stay determined. And if I could, you can. People love you. The ones thqt cherish you will wish you the best. You are loved. You are cared. You are not alone.

Despite everything

You are still you.

• Vikiman

Shout-outs to @Ale_GamePlayer they inspired me to do this...