I'm aware I'm not alone on this. Not even the slightest. I just wanted to come forward on people who've had this same experience like I did.

I know making this post a pretty pointless, but I don't even care tbh.

I've had a fair share with other old buds, y'all knew back in those Firesides. They're gone now. Some are against me, some changed to be shitty, some I found out of how weird or disgusting they were. Like calling Republicans Sex Offenders (half my relatives), celebrating some celebrity's death (i don't support that celebrity), posting weird goon art in public with minors and even some getting caught with sexual interactions with younger kids.

I've remembered many moments like this, it comes to a point that I feel VERY pointless to anyone. I feel the world or anyone just WANTS me to face these situations, wanting me to reach my breaking point. No matter how much I feel like I'm good for a while, something's going to happen. That's how I believe shit happens a repetitively.

Finding out your friend doing a questionable or weird disturbing action will hit you like a truck. It'll ACHE for a while. Until it'll be a scenario you can't stop remembering.

You're not alone on this.