It's gonna be extremely weird on my end irl, without my mom and my grandmother, on top of that last night i had an emotional meltdown bc of someone irl finding out about mom's death that i didn't expect, soooo paranoia = no sleep but no sleep = monster to keep me awake sooooo-

But yea, imma try to keep my head in the game today and whatnot, my mental and emotional state is still kinda everywhere but that's to be expected