the reason why I barely posted, is because I've been losing that spark to do my hobbies and I've been busy trying to get my work together and the mental state I'm in is unholy, I've been having more stress then ever had, the bullshit I deal with in highschool, I just hope no one else deals with it, I'm getting hammered with extra work from classes I'm already done with, ontop with the work I deal with the classes I'm in already are stressful enough, I have huge amount family problem, it's extremely hard for me to get my word through. I've even been developing some dark grey hair from all of it, all I can say is, I'm fucking surprised I didn't grab the gun and pulled the trigger, all I can do for now is live my life and probably give up on these types of hobbies so I can get less stress and problems off my shoulders, I might never get it all off but probably enough so I can relax and listen to the ocean, have get day.