Hi, people. I wanted to finally open myself publicly to tell about specific things that make me pretty uncomfortable, because legit, it can make my day pretty bad.

First of all, i need to clarify that i am myself pretty sensitive, anxious, and easily, my day can be ruined depending of some actions, and i'll list really few things that provoke that, and firstly, i'd like to remember and advice; i'm gently asking and begging that you people respect my boundaries, for i respect everyone's too, so, why not respecting mines too? even so, because it's not that much, it would make sense to respect such few things. not everyone has the same mindset, people are different, and so, i am different too.

first, i don't like when people say Ok, cool,nice to smth i've put hard work into, you know. When i can, since i dont use gj that much, i usually, write really more than just those. These specific words trigger me because it feels soulless; to me. a friendlier and less mean way of saying ok "i don't really care". Even tho, this problem isn't really frequent, i don't really like when that happens, if you are one of those people, Idk, just write more than that, smth like "yo, cool!"

a simple punctuation even can change the tone, sounding more interested than just indifferent about.

Second; denial to accept my differences

this one, tends to make me really mad, and later, i blame myself alot, for going all crazy. I absolutely don't like at all when i did smth, the person gets annoyed by. It's really insignificant things, like, just posting a sprunki fanart, aethos related stuff (for context, it's a fnf mod genre people don't really like, but i do love! and i cant stop making stuff about it) and all go and comment demotivational stuff like, when im yapping about those too, just an example. Another example, is when i tell people i'm straight, it's a really main information about me, and people go all WOAHHH, A STRAIGHT FURRY, YOOO!!!! like, i respect everyone different from me, heck, lgbtq people are among my buddies, great friends of mine belong to the community, and i respect everyone there, but for some reason, people that are new and don't know me fully, go all crazy when i tell i am straight, saying stuff like "It'll grow man i had that same thought too" like, i know what i get turned on, i know what i'm attracted to, and i know what i'm not attracted to. Yeah, i'm a furry cis straight man, what's wrong with it? why caring so much about it that intensely,i follow my own way too, period.

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third, but not less important, this one impacts me the most, and again, i respect people, i legit don't care when someone follows that path, because my life is my own business, it's just not my thing, but doesn't mean i'll care if you're a femboy. it's your life after all! , but anyways, let's go;

it may sound goofy, and funny even, but i HATE BEING ASSOCIATED OR DEPICTED AS A FEMBOY. To me, it feels like an insult to my person. I am different, i am a man, i have dreams and goals, i have things i enjoy and hobbies, there's a real person behind that screen that means no evil. It makes me real mad because i am not that, not even close of that. My irl body is tall, manly, and (pretty hairy even at parts i didnt want to 💀) and my goal, as a fat person, is to you know, get a healthy body, a healthy MASCULINE body. I feel comfortable being masculine, i feel comfortable sounding masculine, i feel comfortable dressing masculine. Is it hard to accept it????

And why i bring that up?

the reason is simple, but means alot. My character Zeck, along with my others too, has a really important and immeasurable emotional value to me. It's my character, as a furry dude, and as an artist, that gives me the most pride i can even think of.

since my early years as a boy, i loved so much creating and drawing. i had a simple goal in mind. Getting popular. years were spent by, my family came after me mocking me, and i succeded. Well.. at least i am heh. I used to judge alot the furry fandom, then i became one! and i was pretty bad. Then a brilliant character was made; Zeck, my sona, that liking or not, has alot of me there. Has my identity,y goofy, but loyal and caring personality. Has even close flaws to mine (distraction, getting stressed easily) heck, if i'm neurodivergent, i'm making him too!

but it's also a character that i can use as an advantage to my own emotional, to encourage me to not give up living, to make certain fictional things REAL! like being a father, being married. that character gave me the smiles and giggles by just making comics at dark days, and it's my character with the HUGEST AMOUNT OF FANARTS! You can tell, i really love that character, and that i am really protective with him. And Clarifying! i don't hate people who are femboys. I am straight, but i support the lgbtq folks, because hating them, is pointless. But since, it's technically, ME, being depicted as something, that isn't even close of what i am, makes me stressed, mad, angry and sad. Legit worthy of ruining my day. Not many people did that fortunately, but the times it was done, it left me real sad :[

i don't really care if the person drew a feminine Zeck as long the person doesn't know me and my character pretty well, something like "i am new, i didn't know that!" i let it slide, it's a person starting to know me after all. but when it's someone i know for a while... boy......

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im telling that exactly to avoid problems. It's not good for me and neither for the person who did it. We both end messing up, and it's no good for my emotional because i tend to blame myself alot and i get really paranoid when i mess up, ok?

it's also a reminder: NOT EVERYONE IS THE SAME! the same rule goes to furries too! or i obligatorily need to be a shorty, dainty feminine gay guy? of course not! I follow my own paths too. So, stop generalizing people. Not all furries are inherently lgbt. i've met straight furries across my path, and my first gf, was a furry straight cis girl. Shocking, isn't?

Just like as a man myself! unlike the general men, i am pretty sensitive and fragile, and i'll avoid being hostile alot!

again, i hope you people understand. this doesn't come from Evil, OBVIOUSLY NO. this comes from my emotional and i hope genuinely i'm not misunderstood. i've put some time writting that. And again, i don't hate femboys, i dont hate lgbtqs, i just don't want to be associated with and depicted as one, because i AM NOT. Piece of cake. Simple. Since it's really few things that i've listed (i just tried to explain really formaly and politely why it discomforts me) i think it wouldn't hurt to respect my boundaries, since everyone has at least one. Remember, Respecting doesn't hurt! that's all. Thank you for reading and sorry for making you waste so much time. I love you all. hope you understand. from the genuine heart, ❤️ Zxtormy!