So , I mainly left for a few days because I haven't been as stable these past few days . Like , I'm happy at times , but idk , I've js gotten worse

My body dysmorphia has honestly gotten worse , I can't recognize my face , idk how my hair nor eyes nor even my body look , everything js looks different for me than it does to everyone else , if that makes sense ?

I did update my irl and my oc , my irls face and hair is completely blacked out , Incase you guys haven't noticed , it's mainly because I'm not going to make an irl oc of myself when I can't/barely can recognize how I look

My body dysmorphia also has been worse today , cuz I met a transphobic trumpie pastor when I went with my gf and her mom to church , cuz they're Christian and I was over at the time (I'm an atheist, I don't believe in god, but I still went, cuz I have respect for the religion , albeit , my respect for most Christians , the bad ones , is zero . Take that how you want) .

Anyways , I left cuz I can't tell who I am . I'm happy , but not the best at most times , especially once I'm alone .

But yeah ,, I'll also update a lot of things . I'll have to make a new bio , cuz I did erase it (It didn't feel like me anymore)