This art piece is the first time I have decided to at least hint to things that happened in the past. I'm not going to give too many details in this story because its very hard to speak about this. Second warning: Sexual assault

When I was about the age of 9 my family and I decided to go camping up in the mountains, so we invited all our cousins along with us! I was so excited because I had a very strong relationship with all of them and trusted them so much. One of the eldest cousins, I will name him Jake just because I don't want to give out names... But he and my brother were really great friends and were always hanging out. So he got to sit in our car for the road trip. Our grandparents were in front and we were crammed in the back, my cousin sat in the middle and my brother sat on the left as I sat on the right, about 1 hour into the car ride (It was 4 hours long) My cousin moved his hand to my thigh, gr0ping it. I felt uncomfortable and scooted away a little bit. But he didn't stop, he moved his hand to my shorts and barely pulled them down. He grabbed my @ss. My heart dropped and started beating quickly, i felt really uncomfortable. I didn't have the courage to push his hand off, and there was no more room for me to scoot away. I was stuck. Frozen. I couldn't say anything because I felt like he would k1ll me. He kept using his fingers to touch my ass and I held back tears. My cousin, who I knew my whole life, was touching me where I didn't want to be TOUCHED. My mind raced and I had no idea on what to do. After 3 hours of his uncomfortable and disgusting acts I had to take in. When we got to our destination I immediately opened the door and ran into the camper locking myself in the bathroom to cry.

The tape on the art piece described me unable to talk to anyone about this. The words around me shows some thoughts I was thinking of.
So basically... this is why I feel uncomfortable when people jokingly talk about sex. Some jokes are fine and I laugh at, but some make me uncomfortable. Such as saying "Mocha loves penis lmao" as a joke. I will feel uncomfortable.
So please, refrain from using jokes such as that.
But otherwise thats the end of my story...