Only around the people in the "okay" zone...

I mean friends, familyh, and even not intimidating strangers!

Then we have "hate? HATE? let me tell you how much I've come to hate you since I began to live (A.M.'s monologue)" zone...I cannot look these people in the eyes without a big fat frown and thinking about the possibility of causing their death right there...

BUT

we also have "AAAAAAAGH" zone which I just discovered...when I like or adore the person so much that i sometimes even feel unworthy of their precious time to be shared with me so I just stand in their presence like:

God forbid they show clear signs that they wanna prioritise their time with something else when I make a move or something cuz then I disappear like...GONE

I know they don't mean to make me sad... I'm not saying THEY make me sad no!

It's something that's wrong with me and idk how tf to fix it

And all this breakdown is ofc because I wanna ask them if they like hugs...