Here's a little fact about depression.

When you have depression it's like you live in another world, or so a different world.. so imagine when you take medecine.

When you take anti depression, it's like you can't.. react or behave the same way as before,you're more calm. For me personally what i feel weird is the fact i can't cry! I mean yes I can. But when I take medecine for these,I do not really cry.. more like tears, it's like my medication holding back my emotions, I have to force my emotions to just tear up 💣💥

I don't know personally but when I feel bad even when sometimes people are not along with me. I can imagine myself with imaginary characters hugging me and telling me that everything is fine... I made those characters in my mind to comfort myself but at what cost? Will i end up more depressed and end up back in a hospital because these things are not In my head, that i forgot them? I don't know.. I'm pretty much being worried about it.

While I write this I'm listening to a very emotional music from a forza horizon 4 hospital soundtrack