Emotional, certain kinds of thoughts end up appearing, idk what others gets, but I get the usual self depreciating thoughts, like I play games a lot, or just rot in my bed and barely take care of myself how am I supposed to get a romantical partner and keep a healthy relationship, I don't see it, and the more I think about it the more it makes sense to me, but I genuinely don't think I'll ever get any kind of romantical relationship at all, especially basing off who my bio dad is, and how he has treated women, and ik I have been taught the opposite of what he does by the rest of my family, but I'm still scared I'm going to end up like that and be like a person he is, and I don't want that, I don't like treating people poorly or harshly, I want to be the rational person, and idk how I'm even supposed to ask any1 out, last time I tried I ended up freezing before I even got to them two times in a row, and I didn't even know why I froze, anyways sorry for the random ass rant :P
Also why is there like barely any rant channels in the main communities I use, like they all are only vent channels that this post would make most sense in, like only two of em have channels that r for vents and rants
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