Lemme explain why I m doing something wrong and what’s got into me

So basically I were been working on school while I was been harrased by one of classmate

First he started making fun at me that I was being bad at football

It’s makes me very upset and angry all the time I was been tired that I couldn’t concentrate the skill

Another classmates start being a super weird saying something to my ear and shitting around me

I couldn’t even handle this anymore so I was fighting with him

I tried to calm down a lil bit but my anger and my tire mentality keeps going and then classmates forced me to play football all day to be gk like I couldn’t even do anything except screaming at them and yeah…that’s all

Next on some another server one of my friends server

so i left the server because i m was very upset about what they just did

lets start on 25.03.2025

when me and others litteraly roasting a girl from irl k3er who litteraly meet k3er started saying some shit about me and it made me almost upset about it but i tried calm myself for once to not mention these words what he is saying right now

ok next 26.03.2025 (yesterday)

when we were playing forsaken i was screaming and tried to proff myself that i could kill everyone but when i didnt killed the last one round was over and b2sy started saying that i m cringe as hell all time just because i was screaming

even k3er tried to making fun at me that i couldnt even stop upsetting about it

when i rejoined the game zoey litteraly started saying some shit about just just because she is mad at the game all time

when round was started to end i was last only alive person who litteraly didnt make it to live just because i was laggy and then i just died and everyone litteraly is making me upset after losing the round even that bitch zoey recorded everything what just happened and i couldnt even handle this anymore since b2sy is being disrespectfull as shit and zoey is being bitch all the time i couldnt even stop thinking about killing myself and hate myself over and over again

its just a same shit as school and here all time

and i just decide to stay away from b2sy and others for good

i dont wanna part of this anymore since I m being treated by some of friends who really doesn’t care about my feelings and health care at all

I m sorry if I did something wrong for you all