i dislike/hate myself in almost every way possible

especially the way i look and sound

i really hate the way i was born

looking back it's not what i wanted at all

but then again not something i could've ever controlled

i'm not exactly "comfortable" in my skin

i wanna branch out more and be more feminine but seriously can't bring myself to do it

i'm afraid of what others would think honestly

i already know my irl friends would absolutely make fun of me completely if i did that

they call me a twink and femboy unironically, even the trans slur (the friend who said that can't reclaim it)

it's really really hard to be myself