Hi. I don’t usually post much on here, but I feel like I need to explain why I’ll probably be taking a break.

It’s my first one on this platform, and I know I’m not super active here, but this has been building for a long time.

To be honest, I’ve been dealing with deep burnout—not just creatively, but emotionally and mentally. I keep pushing myself to draw, to animate, to stay present online, but I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts and depression since I was 11 or 12. I’m turning 14 soon, and every year I feel like I’m just getting worse.

It’s exhausting. I need to stop and focus on my mental health before I completely collapse.

GameJolt has been especially overwhelming because of the drama that follows me for things I shouldn’t be blamed for. One major thing: my friendship with Togo91_. I’ve known him since before he was well-known, when he was still a teenager and I was just 9 or 10. Our friendship is real, and I’ve seen what he’s gone through. He means a lot to me, and it honestly hurts seeing people who barely know him pretend they’re close to him—it made him uncomfortable too, and I hate seeing him upset or used like that.

And no—I don’t want attention from my younger followers. Please stop trying to get close to me.

I am not your friend.

I don’t want to be.

It’s not personal—it’s a boundary. I don’t want to hear life advice or be lectured by people younger than me or just barely older who don’t understand what I’m going through. I surround myself with older people because they’re more emotionally mature and I feel safer around them. That’s it. That’s the reason.

Some of you may not like how I talk. That’s fine. But I’m tired of being treated like a monster for expressing pain.

I’ve had people misgender me repeatedly, even after correcting them (I have the screenshots).

I’ve had people claim I’m “faking being suicidal for attention,” which is disgusting. I’ve been neglected in real life, denied diagnosis, and haven’t even had basic health stuff like my teeth taken care of for years—and you think I’m faking?

This break is for me to protect myself.

To stop piling up burnout after burnout while pretending I’m fine.

To fix the things I need to fix inside me—without pressure, guilt, or other people’s projections.

If you’ve ever been kind to me—thank you. I’ll remember that.

But I don’t know when I’ll be back, and when I do return, it will be on my terms, not anyone else’s.

Take care of yourselves.

I’m doing my best to take care of me, too.