3 weeks ago I was in the city and suddenly lost my consciousness. The reason for this is that I didn't eat or drink properly, most of the time I spent on the pc just keep doing CFW and smoking one cigarette pack after another.

I didn't really care what I was doing, that this was not good for me but I just kept going. Then I started consuming alcohol too. This told me because there was rest, I had not gotten involved in anything for CFW. I found above all and did one bad thing after another. I got involved in every single thing that is somehow not good for me, but it didn't interest me. If my brother MorsStudios (Frederick) hadn't gotten me out of it somehow, it could have been much worse for me.

It's just critical because I just weigh 45 kilograms. Which is very bad because I am a tall person and have weighed over 90 kilos before. I managed to completely destroy my body and mind in not a long time period.

I'm feeling better now, but I don't know who or what I am right now. It just feels wrong the way I am, it's just not really what I feel, it’s not me I think? It's already hard for me to hide from my parents that I'm bisexual and most likely even more different than I thought. That I can’t really be myself and always have to be someone I don’t want to be. Someone who brings me to hate myself.

I really have to find out who I’m truly am and try to take the help from other like my brother Frederick. So expect lesser stuff in general from us @MorsStudios