So like

I wanna draw more

I really like drawing

I also wanna animate

Animation is hard but i won’t get into that

Every time I think “I wanna draw” I remember that my iPad is dead and I don’t feel like waiting for it to charge so I end up just not charging it and so it stays dead

Then, if I do draw, most of the time, I sit there for 20 minutes not knowing what to draw, i just draw lines on the canvas and erase until and idea comes to mind

Then, half the time, I get an idea, and i try to draw it, and i realize that there’s a specific thing in my idea that requires some drawing technique I have no idea how to do or how to make it look right and then I end up scrapping the whole idea and just putting my iPad away, probably for long enough that it dies again

If I don’t scrap the idea, I’ll do the drawing idea, but without that specific thing I don’t know how to do, and then when I finish the drawing, which by itself usually looks pretty good, I can’t help but to have a bit of a distaste to it because it doesn’t look as cool as I thought it would because i never did that idea that would’ve made it cool in the first place

And most of the time when I do commit to the idea i don’t kmow how to do, it ends up looking like crap because I don’t know to do it

Why?

I don’t know

It’s a dang loop

I just

How do I break this

I have so many ideas and so much I really, really wanna do, but I just get stuck here over and over again

man

is this normal?