apparently I've been accused of being racist cuz i said smth called "nagga" and they thought it was the n-word but in fact it wasn't the n-word

for more context what happend it's that me and some friends were trolling people who were being hypocritical to me,me and some friends made a gc and we started making fun of those ppl,but i spammed that same word that looked like the nword, and that resulted into some ppl removing until the thing gets resolved

and tbh, I'm afraid that now the community will say sht abt me for it

and what i think of all this?, well....

On the one hand I think what I did was wrong and that i took this thing too far, but on the other hand, I think they should not accuse me of racism, since what I said is not the "n-word" it was a word that I made that is similar to the n-word, but infact it wasn't

and they also attacked me (before this nagga incident) cuz i called someone "square hands" as a joke and that person was malachi,i wanted to do it cuz they also joke abt me,but they defend that person who i made that "square hands" joke

i wanted to make a deal with them,and that deal was that i will stop making jokes abt square hands if they stopped making jokes abt me,but they were like "no we will still make jokes abt you" "everyone thinks its funny"

but with malachi they were like "that joke is cringe and stupid" "nobody likes it" and that is literally one of the MOST HYPOCRITICAL THINGS I HAVE EVER HEARD,IF I MUST IGNORE THEM WHEN THEY MAKE JOKES ABT ME,THEN WHY CAN'T MALACHI DO IT???,THAT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE

what i got from this it's that they can make fun of me but i can't make fun of them

im not trying to hate anyone,i just want to fix the things and make them realize that what they are doing it's just as wrong as like what im doing to them

please,don't attack me or my friends for this

hope you understand.

also,sorry if I had spelling problems im saying this just to be sure