I know it’s normal to feel at least somewhat isolated and alienated when you’re in an individualized special education class. I have no one that matches my vibe, most people try to be all buddy buddy with me which makes insanely uncomfortable. The lack of proper communication and socialization I go through influences my behavior online, I usually jump to the worst ideas if I am in a situation which results in both sides in pain. And whenever I get called out for being different to people I feel like I should shut myself up to prevent further instances. Until I find someone who is like me, I’ll be closed off for a long time.