I lwk just remembered one of my ex friends I actually don't know what we are bc we talked once before, but it was only bc he wanted to talk about my friend, and we only talked for a bit before we went no contact again so I'm not sure if we're friends or not in his eyes but I don't think so, but anyways, he gave me a nickname, like a mix of my online name and the name I only want my friends to call me, Riko (I think) and he calls me it or called me it during the time we were talking, which was kinda confusing bc I only let friends call me River, and bc I thought at first he was trying to call me Risako but made a spelling mistake but idk, but anyways every time they called me it for the little bit we were talking I was kinda confused, and I couldn't tell if I was okay with it or not, and I still can't, bc usually I don't get uncomfortable easily anymore bc I've learned to suck things up to not make others feel bad, but I lwk can't tell if him calling me Riko, or just over all giving me a nickname without being my friend (or that's what I think idk...) If I'm comfortable or not, and I can't tell if I want him to call me it in general, it's a cute name but idk. Also I'm not saying I wanna be his friend again and that's the only way he could call me it bc I still don't know if I like it and general, and bc I lwk forgot about him and didn't think we'd ever talk again (I'm not trying to say these in a bad way btw...) So it lwk don't know, idk how to feel, or what I should feel, bc I'm not sure if I like him calling me Riko, bc I only let people call me River if they are my friend and idk if me and him are friends, so it's kinda confusing to me. ALSO THIS POST ISN'T MEANT TO BE DISRESPECTFUL OR RUDE OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT IT'S JUST SMTH I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT BC IDK HOW TO FEEL AND I DON'T WANT TO MAKE THAT PERSON FEEL BAD OR ANYTHING😖😣 pls don't take this the wrong way... 🙏