It’s been 631 days (1 year 8 months and 22 days) since I’ve last heard from my best friend of now 5 years. I miss them so much my world hasn’t been the same since they left and I don’t know if I’ll ever get to talk to them again. Them leaving left a void in my heart that can never be filled. I just want my best friend back.. I’m really only even here because of them.. If I hadn’t been such a stupid child maybe then we could have stayed friends. It was my fault her mother made her unfriend me and I can never forgive myself for that. I’ve been trying to recover and distract myself for so long but it’s hard when your missing a piece of yourself that was holding you together.. They were my rock my will to live and now I just am empty all the time. I sometimes come home forgetting they left and when I go to text them I just remember all over again.. it hits me like a train when I realize I may never see them again. I’d cry but even that I can’t do right now. I’m just a dog waiting for its owner to come back not realizing they are gone for good….