my day yesterday was terrible.

Yao telling me all the time to kms, cut myself, saying im worth nothing and etc.

he is not the first person to do that to me.

i have been getting so much hate since i turned into a femboy, so im seriously thinking on quitting being one.

and at evening, my partners did something i am not comfortable to share.

but it just.. let me down.

istg im just a jealous and narcisist mf. i deserve no love and attention.

so, at midnight, when my parents were sleeping , i threatned to shove a knife up my chest, but the max i could do was cut my arm. again.

im so sorry...