I just am obsessed with lying down at night, listening to calming music. I would absolutely love to make some someday. But in the contrary, I love cars, initial D, and making games. I can’t put it into words, maybe it’s my autism, but there’s just something so original and special about initial D. The music, the visuals, it’s so nostalgic and new at the same time. I guess I’m just a sucker for nostalgia, Mario kart Wii is one of my favourite games (even though I rage at it), Minecraft 360 edition will always hold a place in my heart, and just the feeling and look of warm sunlight through a window is something I live for. I apologize if I’m not good at expressing my emotions, or if I’m not good at comforting and communication, it’s not my forte. I just like sitting in a corner, doing me. I guess I’m just venting a bit l, so sorry for that too. I may not always be on schedule, I may not give everything I have, but I’m trying as much as my adhd, anxiety ridden body can.

For however long I can, I will strive to what I like. Whether it be art, tech, mechanics, gaming, development, there’s always a time and a place for me to be comfortable doing what I want.

Maybe I’m stubborn, maybe I’m an idiot, but I cannot do anything unless if I want to. And I apologize for that.

Nothing really spurred this post, just random feelings at midnight. I just wanted to express myself properly for the first time in months. Expect these posts occasionally.

And once again, sorry for wasting your time if you read all this, this is mostly a mental note for future me