Sorry about everything of this situation jay, look, i understand about your situations and i know what you have suffered, its not easy to lose someone and have nobody to turn to, and the only place you put your issues in treats you like shit, i didn't mean to disrespect you and i really do aknowledge everything that happened to you, i was denying the mistakes i made the whole time but now that im starting understand myself, i noticed that i became something i really didn't want to be, and now i have to recognize my mistakes and let them pass by. I do apologize for putting my games over you in your situation, not only was it insensitive, but those decisions of mine made you lose trust on me, even the very little portion. I hope everything that's been happening to you gets solved, i do apologize for anything else ive said or done to hurt you, and im sorry this situation lead to all of this because of my incompetence. Best of luck for you and your relatives.