21 days ago

My Headspace (rant)


I feel empty.

I feel sad a lot.

Happiness I can experience but it's only for a fleeting moment, I miss that warmth.

I'm a lost cause walking in the cold.

I am disinterested in everything.

I'm apathy.

I feel better being around people but at the same time I feel worse.

I predicted everytime freinds have left.

I do have people to talk to but only for a little. Then they drift. I'm alone.

I'm alone again.

Over and over again.

People bore me...

I want people...

People scare me sometimes...

I don't want people...

I don't make sense...

I want people but I'm scared of abandonment.

I'm clingy. I'm obsessive. I can be possessive.

That's bad.

I'm scared to let go.

I face my fear of abandonment so much. Am I finally immune?

The silence.

I just want to hear someone...over a speaker over something. Just. Talk to me....maybe that will ignite my spark again?

Why is everything so hard?

Empty. Tired. Sad. Bored. Somehow my mental state got even worse. Why can't I be normal...

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