A bucket

A bucket poured on my head

A raincloud that will not go away

A crow, unforgiving

A burden lies deep within my heart

Me

Hope

Hope, helping me through life

A helping hand pulling me up every day

A dove helping me fly

A will to live

You

Who

I am a dream, coursing through your mind

I am a nightmare, hitting harder than sea against stone

I am a painting, filling you with colour and joy

I am a blank canvas, unimaginably plain

I am a summer day, refreshing and kind

I am a winter night, icy and cold

I am a helping hand, guiding you through life

I am an antagonist, controlling the game you call life

I am a kind friend, checking if you're okay

I am a burden, ruining your life by the second

I am you, a window emitting light into shade

But I am just a girl, trying to win an already-lost battle.

A battle of love, a battle of hate, a battle of life, a battle of death, a battle of hope, a battle of despair, a battle that I’ve won, a battle that I’ve lost, a battle that I love, a battle that I hate, a battle that I lived through, a battle that I died in, a battle that hands me hope, a battle that gives me despair.

I HAVE TO ESCAPE SOON

Am

There’s something there

It scares me 

I wipe my frontal lobe clean

I peer into the darkness

The thing is gone

I am no longer afraid

I???

What happened?

I was killed

I was saved

I was forgiven

I was betrayed

I died 

I lived

I helped

I hindered

I fell

I arose

I killed

I saved

I forgave

I betrayed

Death is inevitable, but so is life.