-its been a hot minute, don't you think?

• ok so, its been six months since there's been something of actual value in here, and I think you guys deserve to know whats happening behind those greasy and smelly curtains
  And the truth is that, I don't really have anything interesting to tell you, there is nothing

-So the game is cancelled?

• No, the game is not cancelled. its only on a HUUUGE hiatus. and thats (mostly, just kidding!! I take all the credit.) my fault... I just, don't really want to keep working on this, its just, sigh.
  The truth is that, I don't enjoy doing this anymore, and I know youre probably tired of hearing that same thing from my mouth again and again and again, but
  Its been atleast 5 years, since I started doing this game. Everyone would eventually get tired of working on something you've been redoing and reviving over and over and over trying to find something you actually like about it, but the game wont be cancelled since most of it is finished, I just need to do the scripts for the calls and let Rafa do everything else left to do. So don't worry, for now.

-...And what about you?

• ...sigh.
  Its complicated, yknow. Everything just feels so, hard now... I want you to get something straight about me and that is the fact that I as everyone else make mistakes. I used to be an edgy greasy teenager when I started modelling, I used to spread hate, sometimes I still do and then I feel bad about it.
  I want to change, You don't know how bad I want to, I want to forget everything and move on, all that trash has been eating me on the inside and sometimes I just feel like it would be best if I just killed myself. But I will never do that because I am a coward.
  And thats my punishment for my past actions. That's what I deserve and that's the only thing that i'll get until I change for the better.

I need therapy.