The reason I was being suicidal is cuz I been feeling worthless, like I'm always to blame for everything and that I'm not doing anything good, and that if I was to never make a rational decision again, I should just kill myself and stop being an obstacle.

My friend, Deity, helped a bit. (Not her real name)

So... I'mma try to be less online. If anyone leaves an unkind comments, joke or not, it's an immediate block.