Yesterday I woke up at 4:35 am in the morning, grapped my electronics and doing all sorts on there, I was extremely tired, I wouldn't go back to bed i'd just stay up. At school I do have some friends, some friends that are ok but trouble makers, some are decent. Mostly at lunch or break I'd just talk to my female friend who I won't name. But my trouble maker friends or others would make fun of me and her sitting next to each other or talk alot like being BF and GF when were clearly just friends, and I was just starting to feel not ok at all. yesterday break time She would ask me if I was ok and I was pretending to be like yes, I would wanna be by myself alone at break times, usually be my past self. Lunch my friends typically make fun of me as of normal, I was used to that all the time. As soon as I got home I started to work on a baldi mod just for fun, I had some progress but not much tho. Today we were going bowling surprisingly, I thought it would just cheer me up for a while, it wasn't even ok for me because my health was 10x worse than it was before, I keep remembering alot of stuff, either of its the death of both of my dogs or me in the past doing bad stuff or one of my online friends that i known for 2 years getting exposed. I was just very constipated every time it was my go, I did do some good shots but sometimes misses, truth is I didn't really enjoy bowling as much as I thought I would've. I have not been answering to anyone that asked me any question, even If it's my parents, still no. at lunch my female friend asked me if i enjoyed bowling and I just said no, she started to get worried and said why but I just walked away just pissed. Teachers were asking me if me and her had an argument and I said no.

For now I will just put my baldi mod I was working on hold, and just take a break from the internet for my mental health

Thank you for reading, I will for now leave the internet until I feel better now

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