I've been hiding this about me for awhile but to be honest I really can't contain it anymore.

Ever since I was like, 11. I've just been suffering from depression. And it has been worsening as I got older. Alot of personal stuff has happened in my life, and those were the things I was forced to be around growing up as a kid. I was also up till High School isolated, I wasn't talkative, I was just there. People disliked me and talked about me behind my back. And that made me lose trust in alot of people.

The ONLY thing I'll mention is my father was abusive to my mother and just left. To this day I just can't forgive him and I probably never will.

Just like 15-20 minutes ago, I've tried to harm myself, about a month ago I tried the same thing. And to be honest, I've found little to no purpose in my life, the only thing I can REALLY think of is making games for people to enjoy, but that is about it. My motivation in life nearly messed up my grades, and that in turn made my health worse. It also made me develop a self hatred for myself, which has really lowered my self esteem.

All of this has greatly affected my life, And I'm sorry to you reading this that I wasted your time. I just couldn't bear to hide it anymore.