rant lolll

is it just me or like it feels like my friends barely care what im talking about. like im a person with a lot of interest and i mean i will talk ALOTTT abt it, usually if im close tonthem but i cant even talk about it bc usually the main people i hang out with literally just tell me to 'shut up' or just change the topic with my other friends and the annoying thing is I'll also listen to them with whatever theyre talking about but its literally never reciprocated. OMDS LIKE LITERALLY ONE TIME I WENT TO SEE LAUFEY (IT WAS AMAZING BTW) I WANTED TO SHOW MY FRIEND THE VIDEOS I TOOK AND I KID U NOT SHE JUST KEPT TALKING TO HER BF ON CALL💔💔 AND THE FACT SHE ONLY ANSWERED THE CALL WHEN I WAS ABT TO SHOW HER THE VIDS but that was awhile ago so ig im over it but it still hurt

this is like more recent now anyways when i mentioned they said shut up n stuff like icl ik theyre joking but i cant help but be like kinda offended?? like my bad 😭😭☠️☠️ u go and talk then like and they ask/wonder why im so quiet ☠️ be so fr rn omds and the only people who actually listen to my interest are these two REALLY SWEET PPL LIKE THEYRE SO KIND who literally share interest with me 😭 like im actually so thankful for them bc at least i can talk to people who wont actually air me lol i dont even hang out with them much but its always nice to talk with either of them ^^

anyways i just wish my csfs could actually try to bother like do i talk too much of it 😭😭

it just annoys me atp but yea