At some point, everyone i become friends with just gets bored of me. It's because for some reason, i distance myself from everyone i love every once in a while. It's also because their personalities and interests change, while mine don't. They grow up, while i stay childish. It's stupid. I hate thaf i can't physically nor mentally bring myself to actually put the needed effort into friendships. It's tiring, but imagine how tiring it is for others. I feel like i'm just forcing them to be friends with me, when they've already lost interest in me months ago. Texting my friends first feels like i'm a burden to them. And i know i am. I can't keep a conversation going at all. I hate it. I really hate it.