I don't feel anything at this fucking point anymore. And hey, nobody will even fucking read this anyway probably... Whatever, ima still post it.

The only emotion I feel is just loneliness and anxiety. This is because of the current state of my friends just... Being sad... and I can't take it...

whenever people tell me they're upset, or they wanna die, or they feel worthless, or like they don't matter... I die a bit on the inside... and it's just gotten to the point where i've just slowly rotted away and my feelings just become this constant darkness of just being alone... and feeling scared... cause I don't want my close ones to hurt, or kill themselves. Why would anybody....? This is also been the reason I've gotten angry and why I have an even shorter fuse now then back then. When I get upset or sad I get angry. And since all this shit is happening... I'm allways feeling angry and desperate for just... any feeling of joy out of everybody. I will never fully be able to live with the fact that I can't solve everything, no matter how hard I try, even if it means hurting myself.

Glad I got that out... too bad this post is only gonna get like... what 3 likes? and no comments? as allways? yeah... yeah...

it'll probably stay that way for a long...long time...