A little explanation

So for 10 year old me I had just developed OCD and a bit of narcissistic tendencies [the inflated ego with the really fragile self esteem, holding grudges against anyone else who was better than me thinking they were jealous of me, feeling like I was better than everyone else but in reality have a really low self esteem and feeling of self worth, ect] and gender dysphoria

I tried to make the “freckles” look more like dirt specks for the hoarding I had done due to my OCD that led me to live in a very messy and dirty room and the spirals and chains for feeling like I was losing control over myself and my environment and felt like I was “spiraling” and the intrusive thoughts

The baggy pink and blue jacket for gender dysphoria

The heart locket for my warped and defensive perspective on love after witnessing prior relationships and being gaslit into believing I was in love then being abandoned and the trust and abandonment issues that developed because of it and rejecting any idea that I may prefer to be male, rejecting the real me

I might change this design, god I feel like I’m being way too open