Today was the final nail in the coffin for the team that worked on tnc.

TL;DR version:
the team is dysfunctional, not exactly to anyone's fault, just how it turned out.
so TNC is on ice until i can figure out a different way to make it.

Long version:

me and the team had a pretty long (multiple hours) and almost heated argument today, and it proved to everyone something i had been trying to show for a bit now
we are different people with different visions and line of thinking
we don't work well together as a team for a game like this
i have ideas, the team will disagree, and fail to convince me
and because i want to make the game how i envision it i can't just turn down all my ideas
it's not ego or narcissisms i assure you, i'm a pretty insecure person, my low self esteem hos been pointed out by others (therapists, friends, family) and in general i am always second guessing myself
This is simply a case of "tastes clashing"
the team doesn't like an idea i have and i do, either one backs down or it won't progress, i don't expect the team to just be yes men that do all i say, but the team has time and time again argued with something i've wanted and used reasonings that did not convince me (or other people i've asked) almost at all
our different views extend beyond that but you should get a picture by now

me and the team don't work well unfortunately
and since i can't make a game myself, there's no way to continue at the moment

i'm not sure getting more people will help, i need to do it myself or happen to find the right person

the game is not cancelled, but it's not being made either, and while we've taken breaks, this was us agreeing that we cannot make the game together

me and the team, as far as i know, have ended things on good terms
i did my best to be mature and objectional, i've had bad experiences with teams before so i now know what not to do (i.e storm off or end things badly and abruptly)
and the team didn't really act maliciously or immaturely as far as i saw

i started TNC in 2022 with my friend nightmare as the co creator and possible programmer, then later on ribs as the 2D artist
while we didn't do much because our lack of experience back then, it was a dream team because we were friends, we knew each other, we thought in the same lines
it's been more than 3 years now, the project has grown alot
i've met many new members and lost many members for many reasons, including nightmare and ribs themselves
i was in my second year of art school when i started this and now i'm in my second year of university
i've grown as a person, as an artist, but i'm flawed
i'm not sure where exactly i went wrong, i can only take a guess
i'm not a good director, i'm not experienced with games, my unmedicated attention disorder doesn't help much with that, and i'm a weird person who doesn't click with many people
it's a right man right place situation
teamwork isn't just having the people that can do the thing
it involves, people
and people need to be compatible to work together
i realize that now
i don't have enough time on my hands nowadays to start making this almost "dream game" of mine, so i'm not sure what i'll do, but there are options
the people who care about this game, which so far has only been promises of the vague ideas i've had, i don't know why you put up with my bullshit but thank you
i will do what i can to see this project to the finish line.

it's almost 2 am, i've been typing for hours before writing this
goodnight(carnival).