I may be allowed to eat, but it gets to the point where I’m losing that privilege to.

Because I’m a gluttonous son of a bitch, I chose to starve myself as a form of punishment.

I eat when I’m bored. That’s the only thing I do all of the time. I never take breaks from eating. I just snack nonstop until my stomach is full. I don’t even know *why* My friends and family still love me

(platonically + why do I even have friends in the first place ??)

even though I still make SHITTY CHOICES. Yes, my father snapped at me because he cares about me, but he had the right to. Why ? Because I’m irresponsible, lazy, and an idiot. I even don’t know how to describe everything anymore.