Hey hey. My mental health these past months since SEPTEMBER. Has become worse because of this one disgusting maggot of a person. Lets call him.

R.

Yeah. I thought he was innocent. He was pretty overrage..but my dumbass fucking didn't know any better apparently. I was so FUCKING stupid I swear to God.

We randomly became friends. He started texting me. He kept starting to act pretty weird..

All the sudden. He would just start randomly touching me (poking me)

And hugging me.

My friend. E has been watching this ALL happen.

I'm sorry that you had to be a witness. By the way. /dir.

Anyways! Yeah..

He started being even more weirder. Started calling me names like "Dear" or "Darling" and all that shit.

Mind you. He is overage and calling a person who's underage for him (me..) These names... Fucking sigh.

I was dazed and manipulated. Just like that.

Attached. Suicidal. Insecure. Lovesick..???

I started telling all my friends. Trying to escape but my manipulated fucking self drove me back to him. Then we started talking again..

He would also hold my hand.

December. 19. 2025.

I have started to be able to not focus. I have also been acting different since september 2025. When we first met. Silently driving away from EVERYONE. Even the ones I loved.

I started having mental breakdowns. Panic attacks. I started self harming too...

You name it.

R started being more disgusting. He started wanting to DATE ME.

oh God I want to PUKE.

Haha.. Hah.. Heres a message for example of him being disgusting..!

(There was supposed to be one I wanted to send. But I couldn't find it. So have this ig)

yeah.. Still weird.

The most fucking weirdest one was recently.

He fucking said

"What would you do if we were cuddling and you felt something hard pressing against you~? "

... what the fuck...

I was manipulated over and over. I couldn't even say no because I was afraid I would get guilt tripped as always. As the stupid fucking idiot I was.

I was rotten. Still kinda am. I'm. trying to hide myself away from him forever.

I couldn't think. It even kinds effected my grades because I couldn't pay attention or even do my work because I couldnt manage to put anything inside my brain.

But yea. I'm pretty much okay rn I just rlly had to get that out.

If ur here and you've read till the end of this.

Thank you for listening.

^^