I don't want to lose more people.

I lost multiple people on here, including @wgar and some of my friends who have quited.

I don't know why people want it to make it worse.

I don't want to really exist anymore. I just want to be in a white box, away from everything. just to draw and be myself. but I can't. I think I might have some sort of disability, and I can't say to my parents because then they will just say that it's just this or that which is just excuses that isn't helping me at all. I don't know what I'm doing, wrong.