I've always made this clear for years:

I'm not an artist, and I don't think I'm even someone who draws.

I'm just a nobody.

I never wanted to draw.

I always wanted to stop trying.

Those are all my drawings,

attempts.

Even though the post says "fanart," it's not.

It's just another attempt.

I stopped believing in myself years ago.

I stopped saying "art," and I just say "drawings."

Look, when in my entire "GameJolt career" did I call myself an artist? Never, and if I said it, it's a lie.

I don't want to become an artist, and I'm far from it.

I'm afraid of growing on platforms. I wouldn't want to be one.

I just prefer to follow the path that failures follow.

I'd rather be nobody than a typical artist who probably has an NSFW account and spends his time sexualizing the slightest thing that exists.

When I grow up, the most destined thing for me is to leave the internet before speaking.

I'd rather leave than continue growing and be a mediocre GameJolt creator who doesn't deserve it.

I would never accept it.

On the internet, I don't accept myself.

There are people who don't accept me.

Not even a little.

I will never be an artist.

I will never be a creator.

I won't grow because I don't allow myself to.

The only thing I like is supporting my friends.

Without them, I would basically have left for years.

I love them very much. They are even my only inspiration.

But I have my limits.

I don't know, I'm not happy with drawing.

I only draw because I do,

not because I want to.

Basically the same situation when I was in the FNAS community.

But I did want to be relevant, but I never could, and well.

Here I am, doing my best to be a nobody.

I'm screwed.

I'm stupid.

I'm insecure.

Something I'll never be able to get rid of is my insecurity.

If I officially leave the internet, I'll become someone without friends and a hermit.

My friends are my everything.

See you when I tried to draw

-neonss/evdleLR/a loser outside a screen