Look, I'll be honest with you

I did like working on Future Madness

It was fun

Watching my au slowly evolve

As I said, the most amazing memory I had was the first build

Which was just the menu

But the younger me

Felt happy

But after basically 3 or 4 restarts of the project I wanted to finish it definitively. The only problem was just one but it was the biggest problem

I was the only one doing all the visuals

And basically what I was most worried about was how I would do the jumpscares or how I would make fluid animations for the characters

And the thing I was most stressed about all year

How do I make the cameras

Make it look 3D and make it look local and not something empty

And there were more problems like low motivation

And

The fact that my au was considered a fangame and a random au out of nowhere

by fnas fans

But they never knew that au was made by someone small and new in drawing

I just wanted to give my two cents to this community that I used to respect

My dream was to be like the guys I admire so much in the fnas community

I was very inspired by their art and ended up making my own style

I just wanted to be relevant to this community

I wanted to feel valid

but it's hard to be

when there are a lot more people

who do a better job than I did

and give all the attention to someone who is much better than that guy who wanted to show off his limited drawing skills (meaning me)

My fangame was declining and I was giving less effort to my fangame/au

because I tried hard several times and ended up as always

going unnoticed

and well time passed and well my respect for fnas was declining more because I realized how bad the community is

making all my efforts totally and always will be in vain

I will always say that future madness was supported

by my friends that I still respect and I will always support in their fnas projects

but in the end all my motivation went to waste

and

I couldn't even make a render of the characters

and so everything was in silence

I removed the fangame and it's unlisted

and well here we are

I will soon make a video showing everything about future madness that I did from more than 2 years until now

(it's a lot of content)

but there is no date yet

right now I'm focusing on more things, drawing what I want and what people want to see me draw

because I want to be known by more people and meet what could be new friends in the future and form my own community of followers and friends

which I appreciate so much

I hope to finish my only dream that I had for years

but I see that it stopped being possible a long time ago

thanks for reading this

remember that I strive in what is drawing what I like