It's been getting bad again. You might be thinking "what does he mean?" I'll tell you. My mental health has been declining in the past few days now, worse than normal. And you might be thinking what happened so my mental health would decline? Yet another simple answer: a lot.

But here's the thing, I just don't care anymore. I don't tell people anything about it so I fake it. I do. I come online and fake everything, such as emotions, like being upset so I hide it. I've done this for years and I'm used to it by now. I'm so used to it.

I can't tell people anything about it due to my fear of judgement. I haven't told people much. I never will tell people everything, only bits and pieces.