rn year 11 is my worst year cuz I have mocks basically every week, tho othwr tests and exams I have, usually at least two each week and we're focusing on gcse content and stuff which is already stressful enough like its only been 3 weeks and I feel like ive done 3 months of school straight already

and I was stupid enough to think after last week where I had lots of tests and a maths mock and endless homework i would have a nice more chill week rn since I also miss a pe lesson cuz of double pe

but no

the weekend going into this week my grandmother who was really sick unfortunately passed away on sunday morning

and I feel guilty bc I never really see her since she lives on the other side of the world and now she's gone

and I also feel so bad because i dont know how to comfort my father who is obviously grieving a lot

and we're going to the philippines (where she lives) in under a weeks notice/preparation since we're going to attend her funeral and stuff and stay in the ph for 2 weeks

but the problem is I will miss my next two mocks and miss two weeks worth of lessons which altho sounds like it isn't much, it is so much

that's basically half a unit's worth of content missed. I take 10 gcses. I have to catch up with everything.

omg and jet lag is also a problem since I will be so tired when coming back and wont be able to study properly so ill do so bad academically and I wont be able to catch up and I have the two other mocks I missed to also study for , and the other mocks AFTER that to study, and the homework ive missed

im scared ill be too busy catching up and other stuff I wont be able to revise for the actual REAL MOCKS and ughh my eczema has been so bad cuz of how stressed I am I hate this sm

and my headteacher emailed my mother cuz we're absent from school for 2 weeks, that we'll have to attend some urgent meeting idk what that's about I just dont feel like going to school but I dont want to miss on anything so my work doesnt get too much aghjududhshdh